Friday, August 13, 2010

..and I wonder about the wonder

Babies can hear at twelve weeks. I speak to Much-Awaited-Baby sometimes. I wonder how it feels- not just carry someone in your heart; anyone can do that- but to really carry a person around in your tummy, know that behind your belly button is someone else's (eventual) belly button. And best of all- they're yours. something you can really literally call your own. That human being belongs to me. (nobody is supposed to belong to anyone but when you share half of your genetic self with someone I think you do, whether you like it or not.) 'that one's mine'. There is such wonder in a small person! Such sweetness, such a fragile kind of purity... I can't stop looking at you, at your flower eyes and thoughtful fingers, can't resist lightly tapping your little tiptilted nose ("toot toot!"), smiling back at your six-teeth, crooked grin...you are so complete in your tiny self..your head isn't even as high as the kitchen counter and yet there is some kind of grace, some kind of simple wisdom in the way you go exploring, the way you think crossed eyes are funny, the way you give blades of grass, a brick, a thread on a carpet so much importance...carefully investigating, understanding for yourself and carrying onto the next discovery. It's not just that you're so damn cute in your own pixie way. It's the way the world is still astonishing, still new, still special. How every corner hasn't been turned, every berry hasn't been chewed experimentally, every lawn run around barefoot in, every banister slid down upon, every downpour been danced in. And that's what growing up begins to rob from you, and what I try so hard to retain. Wonder.


















10 comments:

Salman! said...

Awwwwww, *HUGS and HUGS and HUGS* for this CUTE little CHUBBY CHUBBY being....she is so adorable, and that smile :)
MASHALLAH MASHALLAH!!

PS. you were really felt-full during that description of having a Baby in your tummy!! God is great, so is his creation =)

WarmSunshine said...

she's a sweety :)

and i sooo love your blog header!

Vanessa said...

What a little cutie!

nikita said...

Truly,its an incredible feeling...hoe blessed we women are,to have the privilege to give birth to a new life...

and the baby is so........chweeeeetttt....nona baccha...kissess...

Vishal Raj said...

Chubby Cheeks, dimple chin

Rosy lips, teeth within

Curly hair very fair

Eyes are blue, lovely too

"is that you ?"

Yes, yes, yes.

For the cutie,sweetie

Sidrah said...

awwie, she is co cute! =D I Love babies ^^ they r cute n cuddly, warm n safe! Heart heart them. (is it scary to be a a mum, though, sometimes? Oo)

Mari said...

awwwww....cuteee....the way u put it in words i simply amazing

Absar Shah said...

Awwwwwwn, who's this paaru bachi? :D

Jiya said...

And all this time I've been thinking I'm the only one who imagines that..
I step araam se imagining im carrying something with me.. its sucha great feeling.. If imagining is so good, how wonderfull its gonna be when it happens in real

Jiya said...

And all this time I've been thinking I'm the only one who imagines that..
I step araam se imagining im carrying something with me.. its sucha great feeling.. If imagining is so good, how wonderfull its gonna be when it happens in real